A few years ago, I never would've imagined eating something without weighing it and noting down the calories and macro nutrients of that particular food.
I never would've imagined spontaneously going out for a meal or eating something that is considered unhealthy (e.g chocolate or white carbs, none of which is "unhealthy" btw🙄). I wouldn't have imagined being able to live a life without having things planned ahead or controlled.
I thought living the way I did was good and healthy and normal.
But it was tiring, draining and abnormal. I wasn't happy nor healthy.
However, my point is I never would've imagined doing all these things I do today and I was soo scared of coming so far, simply because I didn't know how it would be. But here I am today and let me tell you, I am so much happier and actually feel free. Even though recovery and gaining weight is scary and difficult, it'll all be worth it in the end, I promise 🙌❤